DAY TWENTY-FIVE:

ENLIGHTENED WOMEN ENLIGHTENED YOU

“But we grow—sometimes we can outgrow things—and there’s nothing right, wrong, good, or bad.”

“But what I have been utilizing as my toolset for me, I had outgrown.
And so I had to learn over these last three months, how to not reinvent, but kind of rejuvenate, kind of go back in and say to myself, okay, I’m in this rabbit hole. I came here for a reason. Not as a did this to myself, but I’ve made choices along the way that created this.
Did I unconsciously create this? More than likely, but now I’m conscious of where I am and what I like.
And what I heard is that I was dependent upon so many other people in my life for emotion, for finances, for safety, for security. And at any given moment, I always say this, ‘Death… Divorce… Decision.’ That can lead your life. It happens all day long every day.
And it happened in mine. It was a death of sorts.
What I found was in rejuvenating myself it was: How can I change that shame, instead of a would have, should have, could have, into a ‘Well, this is what I know now. This is what I’m going to start with now.’
I know that my intentions fuel the law of attraction. So my intention was to get myself up and out of this hole.
But while I was in the hole, there were others there too, and I met others there that a plethora of experiences in life brought them there.
And I was just floored in this place how many people had the will to continue going… the strength! And I’d lost mine —I was going to stay in that rabbit hole. I didn’t care if I lived or died.
But they did. And so in that moment, I became, not a teacher, but a student. People I didn’t even know were my teachers. I had no clue but what they told me is, ‘Don’t ever give up.’ That your worth is so valuable. It’s a feeling inside that had been buried so deep. I’d forgotten that.”

KAREN D. ANDERSON