By Diana Beyersdorfer

When I was born, I was given the name Diane. I remember when I was young, often people would call me Diana. I used to get angry every time. I did not resonate with the name Diana because I was very small. Diane felt as if it fit me better. As I grew older, I became very adept at being quite invisible. I was often found sitting by myself, always on the outside looking in at all of the fun.

I never wanted to be the center of attention, then Steve walked into my life. Steve gave me something that no one else ever did. He gave me a love that could never be broken. He started out every day showing me how much he loved me just as I was, and he ended every night the same way, and in between, he never faltered in letting me know that in his eyes, I was the one who hung the moon and the stars. Yet, even while we were happily married, I still held a part of me back from him.

I still had no idea who I really was. On the day of Steve’s cancer diagnosis, through the most excruciating pain I could ever imagine, my heart finally broke free of the walls I had built around it. In that single moment, as the words flowed from the doctor’s mouth, the walls came crashing down, and suddenly, I felt a pain that nearly ripped me in two. Steve’s illness brought me to my knees, and his death slammed me to the ground. There, on my bathroom floor, curled in the fetal position, I was reborn.

Now, nearly four years later, I can see the perfection of the plan, but back then, I remember feeling as if death came for me too, even though my body remained alive. I am not the person that I used to be, when we were married, not at all. A few months ago, I came to the sudden realization, that plain old Diane with an “e,” no longer existed. She died along side her love years ago, but like the Phoenix, she came back out of the pile of ashes, completely transformed.

I now have two names. The first, Diane, is the name of the girl who preferred to live in the shadows of others. The second, Diana, is no longer afraid of standing in her own light. She is powerful and willing to embrace the essence of the queen. Diane was my birth name. Diana is my power name, and every time I hear it or say it, I feel as if I have finally become the real me. It amazes me how much the energy of a name can change, just by replacing one letter.

Diana’s website: myhomeinheart.com
Facebook: facebook.com/spiritualguideDiana/

To view Diana’s Enlightened World Network shows:
Forever After That is a show that celebrates the fact that those that we love are never far away. Diana’s guests share their own mystical experiences as we allow open communication from this side of the veil to the other side.
Live on Thursdays at 7 pm ET at https://www.facebook.com/EnlightenedWorldOnline/
To watch replays, go to EWN’s YouTube channel at: bit.ly/3eWpVUn

Silent Mystics: Finding Your Voice with Diana Beyersdorfer & Jeryl Anne Peterson. This world is full of Silent Mystics, those people who have had incredible experiences, but have not yet found a platform to share them. Silent Mystics: Finding Your Voice is a safe place to share metaphysical experiences, burgeoning abilities, and miracles that seem to defy everyday reality.
Live on Mondays at 3:33 – 4:30 pm ET at https://www.facebook.com/EnlightenedWorldOnline
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Come to the Playground is an interactive live show that revolves around reuniting us with the inner child through exercises, meditation, energy healing and cleansing, and play.
Live Monday to Fridays, at 9.30 am ET at https://www.facebook.com/EnlightenedWorldOnline/
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